The search begins

I am starting this blog, so that I can look back and remember the whole process.

Where to begin...I am searching for a midwife. Hubby and I are trying to have a baby....dealing with many problems in this area, so it is a daily struggle for me. With that being said, it was suggested to me that I seek out a midwife. Now when this was suggested to me, I wasn't really sure what a midwife was, what she/he did, etc. So thus my search began, but before I started searching, I watched The Business of Being Born (http://www.thebusinessofbeingborn.com/), man oh man was this an eye opener. This really sealed the deal for me, I do not want a Dr. telling me what I can't do, what I have to do, etc. For thousands of years, women had babies at home without Drs., hospitals, c-sections, etc. I am taking control over my body and my birth. God created a womans body such a way that it is perfect for childbearing. You just have to listen to it, and understand it. You cant listen to your body when you are laying in a bed with your legs in an unnatural position with lights glaring down at you and people yelling at you to push and/or breath. I also have come to the decision that I want a water birth as well as a home birth. I called my mom and told her of my revelation, thinking that she would be excited and happy, but those arent exactly the words I would use to describe her tone on the phone that day. It was more of "um, are you crazy" kind of thing. I explained how I wanted a home birth and everything that went along with it, and never really got any response other than silence...and a couple of OK's....Not exactly what I was expecting. OK, so lets leave mom out of this for now, until we can chat more about it and get more response/understanding from her.

Sooo, At this point, I started researching who, what, how, etc. Oh boy was this overwhelming. So many women, so many ideas...once again, didn't really know where to begin. I started taking it one day/idea at a time. I found a website for midwives, here in TX. www.texasmidwives.com/ This really helped. It narrowed down the midwives that would service my county. OK, so that's done. Now, who do I choose????? I checked with my insurance, and surprise surprise, they only cover a midwife who is a Nurse Practitioner....and there arent too many out there. I checked out several other websites, http://www.midwife.org/, http://www.americanpregnancy.org/labornbirth/midwives.html. Lots and lots of information to swallow. Taking all of this in, I went back to the local midwives in my area and began to email them. I chose about 4 different ones to ask to meet with. Hubby and I have met with two so far, and still working on appts with the other two...but more on that in my next post. Its late for now and I am wiped out.